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Tim-Witnessing Through Heartbreak

By Mark Mull
Wednesday, Feb. 17, 2010

Scripture Verses
Acts 1:1-11

 1In my former book, Theophilus, I wrote about all that Jesus began to do and to teach 2until the day he was taken up to heaven, after giving instructions through the Holy Spirit to the apostles he had chosen. 3After his suffering, he showed himself to these men and gave many convincing proofs that he was alive. He appeared to them over a period of forty days and spoke about the kingdom of God. 4On one occasion, while he was eating with them, he gave them this command: "Do not leave Jerusalem, but wait for the gift my Father promised, which you have heard me speak about. 5For John baptized with[a] water, but in a few days you will be baptized with the Holy Spirit."  

So when they met together, they asked him, "Lord, are you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?"  7He said to them: "It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. 8But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."  9After he said this, he was taken up before their very eyes, and a cloud hid him from their sight.  10They were looking intently up into the sky as he was going, when suddenly two men dressed in white stood beside them. 11"Men of Galilee," they said, "why do you stand here looking into the sky? This same Jesus, who has been taken from you into heaven, will come back in the same way you have seen him go into heaven."

Each July there are flowers on the altar in memory of Tim Mull on his birthday.  Tim was my younger brother who, in 1984 at the age of 27, decided one day that life was not worth living.  He was having marital and financial problems, so in March of that year he took his own life.  He left behind a 6 year old son and a 3 year old daughter.  He never told anyone how life was affecting him.  I have thought of Tim often over the last 26 years and I usually get teary eyed, but it has unfortunately given several opportunities for me to share my experience with others who have had this same thing happen in their family.  The latest was one of the teachers I work with whose brother took his life.  She had no idea that I shared a like experience.  This is a grief that someone just doesn’t understand without having gone through it.  You feel guilt because you didn’t know the agony and suffering this person was going through.  In my family over the last 35 years suicide has taken the lives of my uncle, cousin, brother, step-brother, and nephew.  This is not the witness that I thought God would ask of me, but He has given me the strength to be there for anyone who needs me.

Dear God,
We give all the glory and praises for what you do for us and through us.  Continue to be with us and bless all that we say and do.  Help us to witness our faith in you for those around us, including family, friends, co-workers, and others that we come into contact with on a daily basis.  Give us the words, tools, and the strength of faith to witness to them for You.